69. ADHD entrepreneurs have these 5 annoying traits. Let's celebrate them together!

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In this episode, we're going to talk about the

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top five annoying things that I, and probably you

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do as ADHD entrepreneurs. Hi, I'm Katie McManus,

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business strategist and money mindset coach, and welcome to the Weeniecast!

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There are two types of ADHD people

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that I tend to come across nowadays, that I have this podcast and I work

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with a lot of ADHD folks, and the first one is

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very similar to me. They got diagnosed with ADHD when they were a kid.

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Were never actually brought on board with what that meant

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for them, right? Because back in the day when you got diagnosed with

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ADHD, it was very much, here's how your ADHD is making

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everyone else frustrated. And

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I, along with all these other people who grew up

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knowing they had this label, but not actually understanding how it

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impacted them on a day to day, have now gotten to the point where they're

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comfortable with the label, but they're now watching TikToks and

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reels and listening to podcasts like this and they're

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understanding, oh, my God, I didn't realize that was an ADHD thing.

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That other thing that people do is also an ADHD thing. Holy

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crap. I thought it was just me. Like this whole time.

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I feel like there is gatekeeping of this information,

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and it is probably because the people that researched ADHD early

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on didn't have ADHD. And really, the only

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reason I got diagnosed with ADHD is because I wasn't really following along with what

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was going on in class, right. So I was the

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problem. That's kind of how they approached it early on is this child

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is being a problem. We need to make them not be a problem anymore.

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Maybe give them some Ritalin or some Adderall or whatever else there is out there,

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and hopefully that'll do the trick. I don't remember at any point, I

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will absolutely do an episode on my experience as a

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child getting diagnosed early on because I think that would be super valuable

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for those of you who got diagnosed early on to know that you weren't alone.

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But there was no point throughout all that where I was told about

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rejection, sensitivity, dysphoria, or executive

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dysfunction, I just thought I was bad at paying attention to stuff.

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I didn't realize that there was actually something going on in my brain that made

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it hard for me to start things. It honestly wasn't until

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the lockdown of Covid-19 where I got on

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TikTok and started watching these videos by people who

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have ADHD. They're younger than me. So they obviously had different

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support systems when they got their diagnosis, and they were describing all

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these things that I've done all my life. Squirrel. Squirrel. What

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fake Adhd looks like? Yeah, I have, like, really bad

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AdHD because I can never focus in class what

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real ADHD looks like? Okay, I'm just going to brush my hair. I

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kind of wish I was a brunette. Oh, are those my kids?

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I literally lost them. I have an identical

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twin sister, and we were both diagnosed with ADHD, but our diagnoses were almost ten

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years apart. I presented as very outwardly hyperactive, and she presented as more

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inattentive. So I was loud, disruptive, and had trouble sitting still,

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whereas she appeared uninterested during lessons, doodled a lot, and always seemed to be

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distracted by her thoughts. All right, let's sit down and do

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some work. Work.

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All right, enough. Come on, sit down, dude. Focus. Focus,

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Ford, focus. What a piece of car. Squirrel.

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It's like you're a zebra in a herd of horses.

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You might realize that you're a zebra, but you think that you have to fit

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in with these horses and really, like, zebras are

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horses. They're not great. They can't do the things that

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horses do. But understanding that there are other zebras

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that are also shitty horses and that they're shitty at being

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horses in the same way you're shitty at being a horse, there's a

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relief to that. And I hadn't ever

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experienced that relief until I started watching

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TikToks by other ADHD creators. And really, that's the only reason this

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podcast exists. So thank you to all those creators on

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TikTok who inspired this. So, in honor of

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that, I want to share with you the top five

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annoying things that my ADHD does

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that drive me and everyone around me up

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the wall and how I

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am learning to cope with them, because let's be

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honest here, they still drive me nuts. They're still problems. I haven't

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figured out the solution to this, and as I'm sharing these things, if

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you have an experience of this, I would love it if you shared

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how this shows up in your life to my instagram. If you go to

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Instagram, it's at Katie the coach. And

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if there's a thing that you have going on that I'm not

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listing, I'd love to hear that, too. Because the goal here is

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to start showcasing the person

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with ADHD, their experience of having

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ADHD, rather than the diagnostic

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criteria that represents how other people are

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frustrated with us. For someone to be able to diagnose us. They kind of have

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to be able to see, like, how us being ADHD is negatively impacting

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the people in our lives. It's usually the thing that we see,

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but for us, that doesn't quell this feeling

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of, I must be the only one. I'm just fucked up, there's something

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wrong with me. No one else has this problem. So the

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goal is to create a very comprehensive list of all the annoying shit

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that we have to struggle with with ourselves so that we know that we're not

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alone, so we know that we're actually adequate zebras, not inadequate

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horses.

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So the first thing on my list is I'm a 60

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percenter. I get really excited for new projects,

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and because I get hyper focused on new things that

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have variety and energy and are

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interesting to me, I can bang out a big

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chunk of any project to a

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point. There comes a point where

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it stops being exciting. Like, this new project

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loses its shine, gets a little dusty. The

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way you got yourself into it with that motivation

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fizzles out. Like, as I'm recording this podcast, I'm

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sitting in my office. It has four walls, as rooms

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do. Some rooms have more, some rooms have less. I don't know why I

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wanted to clarify that, except to explain that three of these

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walls are painted a different color than the fourth, and not on purpose,

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because when I made this room my office, I decided I wanted to

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repaint it, and I got three walls in, and I was like, you know what?

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That's good enough. I don't really

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feel like painting that fourth wall. It seems like I can do it later.

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Right? Like, this is good enough. That wall never

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got painted. Of course not. It's still the old color. To its

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credit, it does look like an accent wall. Okay, so it

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works. Unless you look under my desk and you see the can of paint that's

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still there with the drop cloth and the thing. Let's not talk about that.

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Also, there's, like, too much stuff in front of that, so you probably wouldn't even

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be able to see it if you did come into my room. This happens

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everywhere. This happens in all aspects of my life

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as a crafter. For those of you who do knitting and sewing

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and quilting, you'll know what I'm talking about. When

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I moved out of my apartment in Philadelphia, I literally counted

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how many knitting projects I had started and not

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completed that were still in project bags.

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And I'm pretty sure the number is around 23. Now,

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to give you an idea of the kind of knitting I do usually

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a ball of yarn that I buy is around $30, and these

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projects usually have about three of those, if not

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more. So $90 worth of yarn. The needles are

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usually $20 each. And then, of course, the project bag. So

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literally 23 projects that all cost me all

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in, say, $130 that I've never

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finished, they're all about 60% done.

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And honestly, I know I'm just going to continue to move them

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with me as I go through life until I die. They're never going to get

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finished. Like whoever I leave my

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estate to when I'm old because I don't think I'm going to have kids, I

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feel really bad for them because they're going to have to throw out

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my unfinished work that I started 60 years before.

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So, to whoever you are, if this podcast is still around when

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I die, I preapologize to you. And also

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I preapologize for all the projects that I know I will start between now and

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then and never finish that you will also have to deal with. What's extra

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fun about this is it doesn't just exist in painting rooms,

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in renovating your house. It also happens in your business,

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which makes it so much fun for

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your vas, your obms, your podcast producer, to

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work with you. As Neil and I were talking about the topic of this episode,

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he reminded me of a couple things that I told him I would get to

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him months ago and then completely forgot about.

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I'm not gonna lie. Hearing about them gave me a little bit of anxiety,

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but also, I should probably get them done right.

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This is something that drives me crazy about

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myself. It's something that if I could wave a magic

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wand, I would change spelly armor. And it's also something

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that I honestly have not figured out how to fix.

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Right. I have set goals for myself that I'm going to finish all these

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things. I have asked for accountability on

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them, and usually that accountability just gives me anxiety.

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The one thing that I find does help is

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having someone sit down and doing it with me. Like body doubling,

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having a friend come over. I mean, it would be really boring for a friend

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to come over and just sit there while I finish a knitting project

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that really, honestly needs another 14 to 25

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hours of knitting. That would be a very patient friend, or it

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would be a friend who really has to catch up on a major series or

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something on Netflix. I have good friends, but I also don't have

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any friends who have that much free time. So it's

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probably not effective for a lot of stuff that I'm only 60% on,

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so if you have any tips on this, I would be open to hearing them.

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If you also do this, I'd love to hear exactly how

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this shows up for you in your life. This also shows up in

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how I live my life in my space. So, like, for instance,

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if I decide that I'm going to take Luna for a walk, I have to

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put on socks and I have to put on shoes. I'll go into my bedroom,

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I'll open the drawer, pull out the socks, then put them on, and

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then go for a walk. I won't close the drawer.

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By the time I've acquired the socks, the drawer has

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ceased to exist to me. It has served its purpose.

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Like, there's no next step in my mind to the point where

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I will walk into my bedroom and every single drawer

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in all of my dressers will be open. And it's

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inconvenient because if you need something in a lower drawer, you can't get to it.

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So that's when you kind of have to close things. But that

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60% done shows up in a lot of places.

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It has made me kind of an annoying roommate in the past, and I do

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apologize. My former roommates. Anyway, moving on.

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The second thing that drives me absolutely bonkers about

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myself and also annoys people around me, is I'm really good

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at planning the plan. Right?

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Planning the plan does not equal doing the plan.

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This happens especially for us, in the new year,

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in a new month, right. We decide that we're going to take on a

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new habit that sounded like hobbit, a

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new habit, like working out or being on social

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media. We're really good at planning out what we want to do,

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and we can kind of get addicted to the planning of it

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and not actually ever do any of it.

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So planning on the plan. For me, this

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especially shows up in creating workout plans for myself and

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in my business, two areas that are pretty important,

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my health and my income. Now, I will

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say there's something about this that I do like, because creating a plan, to me,

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I find very soothing, very reassuring, that when you see the

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plan laid out on paper and there's space for it in your life and you

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could do it if you wanted to do it, it's there for you, it fits,

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there's time for it. It's not like you're being unreasonable in saying

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that you're going to devote x amount of time every single day when you don't

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actually have that time available. So there is some value here,

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right? Because sometimes when you have anxiety, you just have to do one little

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thing that will bring your anxiety down enough that you can move on and do

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other stuff. Sometimes this is that for me. But for the

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most part, I'm really great at making plans that I never act on.

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I imagine who I would be if I made the plan

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and did the plan. Think about how fit I'd be. Think about how

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accomplished I'd be. Think about how many books I would have written by now. There

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are several books that I've started and I've never finished, but I have plans for

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them. I have the chapters planned out. I have the storyline or

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the point of the book. Fiction and nonfiction. I could be a New York

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Times bestselling author by now.

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I'm now going through what my life would look like, and I'm living in a

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moment of regret because there's no way I'm ever going to follow the plan.

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There's no way I'm going to plan the plan and then actually do the plan

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on all the plans that I've ever made. I get excited for new

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plans all the time, and actually, maybe that's a hobby. Maybe that's

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something I do for fun. If you listen to the last episode where we talked

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about having fun for fun's sake, maybe planning is actually

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something that I do for fun, which is kind of sad. I need more

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hobbies.

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I need to get out more. This episode is basically an apology

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tour to everyone who has to deal with me on a day to day

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basis or has had to in the past. So I apologize to those of you

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who've had to deal with my planning self and my not doing

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self. I want to say I'll try to be better in the future, but I'm

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always trying to be better and it never actually works.

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Number three, another thing that I do as a

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business owner with ADHD is I actually steal

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dopamine from myself all the time. This dopamine

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theft usually happens by me setting an

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arbitrary deadline for me to do something that I planned

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on and then not doing it and missing that deadline

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that I set for myself that no one else was counting on, and then feeling

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bad about it and feeling like, oh my God, I'm so behind. This is

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three weeks late when really it doesn't affect any other part of your

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business. No one's waiting for it. It's

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literally just something that you said that you would do for you and then

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gave yourself a deadline for when you

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pass a deadline. There's no more dopamine in that action

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if you go and do it, you don't get any credit for it.

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There's no wave of relief that you got this done.

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You've failed already, right? It is the

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ultimate way to steal dopamine from yourself. This is one of the

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reasons why in the Monday sprints that I do with my clients and my

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communities, one of the first things I have them do in that

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call is I have them forgive themselves. Like silver light

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just kind of washing over them. That washes away the

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lateness and the behind on the deadline

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and kind of cleans up all the energy around the tasks

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that they're going to assign themselves that week. Because if any of those tasks are

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hangovers from the week before, the week before, the month before, the year before,

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they're not going to have any credit attached to them. They're just going to have

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failure. And whenever we feel like we've already failed at something, that's prime

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time for our executive dysfunction to pop up and we will avoid it

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and we'll continue to feel about it, and it doesn't matter, actually,

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how many other things we do and accomplish in that

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week if we still have that one thing that we're behind

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on it actually robs dopamine from the other things as well. We got this

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from school. We got this from work. There were deadlines we had to have our

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homework in. If we didn't do it, we didn't get credit. If we didn't learn

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the stuff by the time the exam, we failed the exam. When you run your

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own business, you're the boss. You make the rules.

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If business is going fine without this

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thing, then you're fine. No one cares.

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I had a complete meltdown to my social media manager a couple of

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years ago because I had set this expectation for myself, even though I

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tell all my clients different, I had become prominent on

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LinkedIn and had a really steady posting schedule for

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like, it was just baked into my routine. And then I was like, okay, cool.

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And then now I'm going to do TikTok, Pinterest, and Instagram all at the same

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time, counter to every bit of advice I give every one of my clients.

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It's too much. And so I assigned myself the work. I planned the

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plan, and then I didn't do the plan. I had this freak out because I

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was robbing dopamine for myself and I wasn't getting other stuff done. Jess called

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me out on it. She was like, okay, cool. Were you ever getting clients from

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these other platforms? And at the time, I wasn't. She's like, okay, cool. So

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you not doing it is actually not hurting you in any way, shape or form,

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right? It's not like you're missing out on business because the business

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isn't there yet, because you haven't done it yet. You've gotten all your

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business from LinkedIn and from referrals and from other sources.

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You're fine. When we rob ourselves of

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dopamine, we rob ourselves of that steam that keeps the momentum

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going. And it's cruel and it's unnecessary,

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and it actually hurts us more than it helps us. So deadlines,

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use them to the extent that they're useful for you,

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but when they start becoming destructive, stop. That's what I've

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learned.

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Related but different. The all or nothing. So for someone

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who is not athletic at all, like, doesn't know the rules to sports,

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if you've been around here a while, you know, I can screw up the most

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simple sports metaphor, but that doesn't mean that I don't

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enjoy physical fitness. So, like, I love going to the gym. I love

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picking up heavy things and putting them back down. I love

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cardio and kickboxing and all that stuff. And

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I think when I create a fitness plan for myself,

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I tend to get excited for all the things that I can do in a

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week in my mind, and I forget that my body

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still has to actually do the things. So I

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have to catch myself on this all the time. And this happens at least once

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a month. I'll make a workout plan for myself. Three days in the

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gym, Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday. Here's the workout plan I'm going to follow. Oh,

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I have four more days in the week. Great. What if I ran two of

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them and did yoga plotties the other two?

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Oh, but now I want to look at the schedule for that yoga studio. They

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have a yoga class at night, but that's on a Tuesday or Thursday. Okay, cool.

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I can do two workouts that day. Oh, yeah. Well,

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if I want to run two times a week now, it kind of has to

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overlap with this thing. Okay, so I'll work out three times that day. Two times

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this day. That's not going to happen. I'm

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not an athlete. I'm a normal person who sits most of the

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day. Okay. I'm also way less in shape than I used to be when I

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worked at Equinox. Right. Which is a place I used to work at. It was

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a high end fitness club. What I still do to myself to this day is

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I make this elaborate plan with this unreasonable amount

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of workouts. In it. And day one I hold myself to the

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expectation of doing it and I don't do it. And then it's like, well, I've

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already failed at this, so I might as well not do it for the rest

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of the week. And then next week I'll start. We do this all or nothing

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thing to ourselves, right? And we attach failure to it

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when we don't adhere to it perfectly. It happens in

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fitness, it happens in diets. If you're trying to lose weight or if you're trying

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to eat differently, if you're trying to cut sugar out, and then you go eat

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ice cream, and then you ate ice cream once, so you've screwed up the

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whole plan and, oh, nothing. So now you're just going to eat ice cream

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and completely fall off the wagon. Happens in our

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businesses, like posting social media. If you're in

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a 100 day streak and you miss one of the days, what happens

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the next day? And the next day? And the next day? Do you have the

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same momentum? There's a point at which giving

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ourselves like short sprint goals to do something every single day is really

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helpful, but it stops being

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helpful when we apply the all or nothing rule

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to it. If you failed one day, then

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none of the rest counts. It does actually

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count. That's something that drives me absolutely crazy about

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myself. And yet I still do it.

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I still do it. I still make these elaborate plans and I never stick to

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them. It's exhausting. I mean, it's not

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as exhausting as working out two or three times a day. Now I'm just thinking

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about how fit I could be, how in shape.

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Oh my God. The last thing that really annoys me,

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that qualifies for this list is what am I going to say

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next? Well, you'll have to keep listening to find out. But first, squirrel, squirrel,

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squirrel, squirrel.

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The last thing that really annoys me that qualifies for this

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list is this assumption that I suck.

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I pretty much assume that I suck at everything. It

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takes a lot of positive feedback for me

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to start believing that I don't suck at something.

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This is classic impostor syndrome. Now, this comes from

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various places in our ADHD matrix, right? Comes from

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rejection, sensitivity, dysphoria, where maybe we do something but

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we don't get the overt feedback that was

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positives. And so we assume that it wasn't good enough, that we weren't good

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enough. It can also come from having shiny object

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syndrome and jumping from hobby to hobby to hobby to hobby.

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We don't necessarily become deep experts about everything. We become

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generalists, and whenever we come across

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someone who knows more about a thing than we know,

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we just assume that we're trash. Right? We're trash.

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They're the best. We suck. We're the worst. And that's

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that. Early on in my business, I did this a lot more,

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because when I would go online, when I go on social media, I'd get all

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these advertisements from fellow business coaches, and they looked more

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successful than me, and they looked more well put together.

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They had way more success stories with their

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clients. Now, I completely discounted that. This person

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usually had been in business ten years longer than I had because they'd

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been in business ten years longer than I had. They had a bigger budget, they

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had more programs because they'd had the time to develop them,

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and they just had more experience. And also, you can

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appear successful online and not actually have success. So who knows

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if these people actually were as successful as they were? But these

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advertisements were in my awareness because they were showing up for me, and they

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would make me feel so small until I

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realized that the Google machine pays attention to everything that we talk

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about. So as someone who's constantly talking about business coaching,

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because I'm a business coach, the Google machine can't

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discern between, oh, this person does that, or this person is interested

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in that. So the Google machine just shows you lots and

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lots of business coaches, right? Or if you're a yoga teacher, lots of other yoga

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teachers, or if you're a landscaper, lots and lots of other landscapers,

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to the point that it's really easy to think the market's completely

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saturated and everyone else is way better at this than you are,

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and you should just give up. Now, I've gotten better at this because I

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have that understanding, and yet still, I get

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major impostor syndrome. When people who

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I admire and respect and I see as successful in a lot of

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different ways, when they reach out to me and ask me to partner with them,

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my impostor syndrome flares up like, no, you're not qualified for this.

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Forgetting the fact that they know I'm qualified, there's a reason

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they want to partner with me. Now,

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this annoying thing, this assuming I business, is

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one of the most painful things, because this assumption that I

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suck or that I'm not good enough in a lot of areas

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actually keeps me from going for things that I really deeply want.

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I have ADHD, and if you follow sacred money archetypes,

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I'm a maverick, which means I'm very risk comfortable. Okay,

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I'm okay, with risk, I actually really enjoy it. And

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also sometimes if the risk is that I'm going to be

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rejected or told that I'm not good enough, I will just self

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reject. I will hold myself back. I won't actually go for

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it. That's not something that helps you grow your business. It's not something

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that helps you grow an empire, which I'm working on right now.

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So this, as I'm talking through this, I feel like I'm just giving myself a

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therapy session. Honestly. There's an activity that I assign to my clients and I rarely

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do for myself. You know the movie mean girls and how

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like, the premise of the movie is based around this group of

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girls who are mean and they write mean shit about everyone

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else in this burn book. The burn book gets out

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and it tears people down and

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like, violence ensues. They have to have a whole school assembly

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to assess or to acknowledge all the mean things that got said.

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And the reason it got that far is because the mean things that were

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said were believed by the person that they were said about.

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If you say something mean about me that I don't think is true already, I'm

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not going to get upset about it. I don't care. But if you say something

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mean about me that I'm already holding against myself, I already

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assume I suck in that way. That's painful.

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Now, what I tell my clients to do that I'm going to start doing after

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this recording is instead of collecting a burn book on yourself, because we all

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do it. We're all constantly scanning the world for all the ways in which we

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suck. Instead of collecting a burn book about

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yourself, start creating a brag book.

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We have a weird relationship with that word brag, right? Because

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when we see someone brag, it's usually done in a way that is meant to

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make other people feel bad. That's not bragging. That's being an

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asshole in its most energetically

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pure form. Bragging is a

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manifestation tool. Bragging is basically saying to

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the universe, oh, my God, this amazing thing happened.

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I am so happy about it. I would love if

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more things like this happened. Please and thank you.

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Now, the trick here, and I know this for my clients, and if you

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have a business, you know what I'm talking about, because we all know for our

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clients things that we don't do for ourselves, right? Anyway,

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a brag book isn't going to feel real until you do it a lot. Because

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if you've been raised your entire life to look for all the ways in which

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you suck. And you're really good at looking for that evidence. Looking

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for evidence that's opposite to that is going to feel really

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fake for a long time.

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So it takes repetition, it takes constantly acknowledging

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the things that you're good at, the good things that come to you, the things

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that you're grateful for. It's a practice. It's not a one

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time thing. And I'm explaining this to you, but I'm also kind of explaining this

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to myself so that when Neil and I stop recording this podcast,

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I can sit down and plan a plan about how I'm going to incorporate this

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into my day. And you can see where this is going to go. I'm going

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to plan the plan and I'm not going to do the plan. And then I'm

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going to continue to assume that I suck.

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It is a vicious cycle, people.

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And to be honest, I'm not entirely sure how to get out of it.

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But you know what? One of the best things about the

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weeniecast community is that we can be in this vicious cycle

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together, and it doesn't feel as vicious.

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And for that, I thank you for being here. I thank you for

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being in my world and for all the beautiful feedback that you give me about

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this podcast and how it helps you every day.

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And for all the ways in which this episode might not have actually been helpful

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at all because I haven't actually figured this stuff out for myself. I

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apologize and I thank you for listening. Squirrel, squirrel,

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squirrel, squirrel. If you're ready to stop being a weenie and actually run a business

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that makes money, then go ahead and book a generate income

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strategy call with me by going to

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weeniecast.com strategycall.

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On this call, we will talk about your goals, your dreams,

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and your frustrations in getting there. And if it's a fit

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for both of us, then we can talk about different ways to work together.

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Okay, back to this thing with the weird apostrophe. Okay,

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shut up, Neil. Stop talking.

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Okay,

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to get my together.

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Are you hiding? Are you hiding so I don't see you laughing?

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My RSD is pulsing right now. Oh my God.

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RSD. RSD. Okay, in

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this episode, we're going to talk you through why. To have

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more fun. For fun's sake. For fuck sake.

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Yes. Brilliant.

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Awesome. Squirrel,

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squirrel, squirrel, squirrel.